As we’re rounding the week 6 mark, I can finally say I’m getting more used to this new life and new normal. The past several weeks have all been about the feeding, pumping milk, changing diapers, keeping her satisfied, and sleeping well. It’s been an adjustment to say the least. I can surrender to the fact that all I’m expected to do nowadays is just look after her. It’s not hard or stressful.. yet.
On the bright side of things, I can spend some alone time watching YouTube videos or Netflix shows or movies while I’m pumping milk. I can eat whatever I want without much restriction because I’m always hungry. I can eat high calorie items without much care. I know I need the extra calories to produce milk anyway. Because of the pandemic, I don’t have to worry about making plans or being afraid I’ll miss out on something because everyone is at home nowadays anyway. The stress to interact and socialize with others has evaporated. It’s nice not to have work stress although a part of me does miss it.
Her eyelashes are growing longer. We’re learning her cries are for attention or comfort as opposed to just hunger or needing a diaper change. Her legs are starting to stretch out straight as opposed to being curled up all the time like when she was in the womb. She’s starting to refuse the nipple now that we’re 5 weeks into drinking pumped milk from a bottle. She’s more sturdy than before; neck is stronger. She’s starting to follow moving objects with her eyes.
I’m surrendering to the fact that I’m a new mom now and shouldn’t feel the need to keep working or striving to do other things all the time. My role is simple; just look after her. The moment here and now is all about her. I am surrendering to this new role.